I had quite an interesting conversation earlier with my lover, Iris. We were then merely listening to a couple of new songs I've downloaded when she suddenly asked me a question I never expected to come my way at a time like that. I have to say I was caught off-guard being that it was completely out of the blue, besides the fact that it was past 3 o'clock in the morning already. I really cannot remember anymore what were were talking about before that, and I don't think it would bear any significance after what transpired.
A Question Of Faith
21 March 2010
She asked me what my opinion was towards religion, or more specifically where I stand from a religious perspective. She was asking me to label myself based on what I practice. For all intents and purposes, I am technically a Roman Catholic. I was born into a devoted Catholic Family, and I have been educated in one of the finest Catholic schools in this country. I was raised to be a Catholic, which I am truly thankful for since I've learned mostly who I am through it.
Technicalities and formalities aside I can honestly say that I am a Christian, although I do not conform into the norms of what I "apparently" should be. I do believe in God, The Holy Trinity, Heaven and Hell, and all the things that any ordinary Christian would believe in. The difference is that my actions, intentions, and purpose in life are in no way inspired by my faith. I act according to my own conscience, although it is not the type rooted in faith either. My conscience is built on education(hence the reason for my gratitude towards my upbringing). I have a firm grasp towards the concept of right and wrong, fairness and equality.
If I may be defiant, I utterly dislike, almost to the point of hate, the thought of developing faith through fear as most Christian children are molded to think: "if you are bad, you're bound to go to hell" or "you will be punished if you do not obey the commandments". While both statements could be truthful, it creates faith born out of condition rather than love. In turn, it is though as if one should act within the bounds of religion to impress God, not because it is what's right. If God is just, then he would love me for who I am being as just. I believe God would give me salvation not because I devoted my life to Him, but because I believe in what He believes in.
As the conversation came to a close Iris asked me if I know the difference between belief and faith. I answered: "if there is a difference between the two it is that 'belief' is one's knowledge of one thing, while 'faith' is the conviction to rest one's entire existence upon that belief". She then turned to ask if I have faith, which I answered: "I know what having faith means."
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The Feline Named Sasha
14 March 2010
Tomorrow marks the birthday of my beloved Black Swan, Iris. However, since I would have to go to work on a Monday I decided to treat her out tonight instead. Since Iris is of italian descent I thought of bringing her to our local ristorante italiano, Bellini's.
On our way there, Iris and I visited an art gallery located just a few steps from the restaurant. We were just looking around appreciating such wonderful local artworks, when a cat suddenly appeared out of nowhere. Being the cat lovers that we both are, I told Iris about the cat and she followed it to the middle of the gallery. What came after was a series of pleas from Iris for me to come to her. I did not think it would be of such importance at first, realizing how mistaken I was when I saw what she was trying to show me. It was a litter of 3 kittens playing with her, one of them bears the pattern that she has been looking for in a cat for ages. At first we were hesitant in taking the kitten, but I knew that this opportunity may never come again. We decided to ask the gallery owner if we could keep the kitten, and without a moment to spare he said yes.
We decided to go on our way to have dinner, with the kitten hidden inside her bag. As soon as we had our seats, the kitten started crying and making all sorts of cat-noises. The people from Bellini's did not really mind, but we did not want to ruin their business. So even if it was beyond their protocol, the people from Bellini's set up a table just outside the door. We had a wonderful dinner and even if was earlier than I planned it to be, we went straight home after.
We welcomed the kitten as the newest part of the family, and I decided to name him Sasha. And for some reason, Sasha got attached to me pretty quickly, even sleeping in my arms without hesitation.
This proved to be such a wonderful night, especially for Iris whom received the gift she really wanted.
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Death and Rebirth
03 March 2010
After 27 years of living, I have decided to die.
...not literally, though, for that would just be absurd. Rather, I have decided to leave my old self behind. To free myself of quite a number of useless human endeavors, and live towards becoming a new being. I thought it was necessary for death to occur first in order of new life to blossom. Quite a cliche if one would think about it, but fact nevertheless. I am working hard to fight against what Louis de Pointe du Lac describes as "Human Recoil". I have signed my resignation from being human.
Why, might you ask, do I turn my back from being human?
Simply put, humans have lost the very core of their being, their humanity. They have become more vile and horrific than the very monsters they once feared. They have become the very stuff their own nightmares were made of, and I am unable to allow myself live such a life.
To anyone who might come across this journal, please do not fall under the impression that I despise humans for it is quite the contrary. Although I cannot claim to be an advocate of their reasons either.
...not literally, though, for that would just be absurd. Rather, I have decided to leave my old self behind. To free myself of quite a number of useless human endeavors, and live towards becoming a new being. I thought it was necessary for death to occur first in order of new life to blossom. Quite a cliche if one would think about it, but fact nevertheless. I am working hard to fight against what Louis de Pointe du Lac describes as "Human Recoil". I have signed my resignation from being human.
Why, might you ask, do I turn my back from being human?
Simply put, humans have lost the very core of their being, their humanity. They have become more vile and horrific than the very monsters they once feared. They have become the very stuff their own nightmares were made of, and I am unable to allow myself live such a life.
To anyone who might come across this journal, please do not fall under the impression that I despise humans for it is quite the contrary. Although I cannot claim to be an advocate of their reasons either.
Posted by Lorenzo del Cuervos at 6:20 PM 0 comments
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